confused

wth has happen to me?? i used to be so hardworking.. see my goals clearly.. trying my best and finding all kinds of way jux to achieve it.. ever since i get to go online at home.. its like a disease to me.. going online, tats wat i do every single day.. din online jux one day then start to feel uncomfortable.. wtf man.. should i ask my parents to cut off the line till weekends only?? coz i feel tat i cant control myself.. i nid to practice self control again as it is SPM this yr man.. no more playing.. its really really really HAPPENING!!! every single day i tell myself tat i hv a lot of time left.. tomoro there will be another 24 hrs waiting for me.. but i noe for a fact tat every tomoro i will hv a busy day.. and i will hv more n more wrk to do and the end.. so wat's happen to me.. can i not control myself?? my parents sent me to so many of these courses and camps.. jux to let me learn the ways to concentrate, ways to be a better person, ways to use my time the max, be a leader not a follower and many more.. but wat hv i done! all the knowledge i hv.. but wen do i apply it!!!! moral folio... why the hell i wait till now oni do!! fucking SPM!! why the hell malaysian education system hv to be like tat.. dun they noe tat the more they apply tis kind of system, more n more students will jux wanna rebel and hate the country??!! grrr... jux hv to work hard now.. no other choice..

SAD AND ANGRY OF MYSELF... ;(